My creative journey bumps and all! Inspirations, how to keep productive and navigate doubt on my way to crafting and artistic success!
I've been on a creative journey for many years....in fact since childhood. I haven't quite found my way yet to my ideal destination but I'm on the road!
I have a visual arts background amoungst others things ( day jobs) I've worked in ceramics, silk, timber.
Is my art any good? That question regularly pops into my head and floats around! I’m sure I’m not the only artist who considers this (wow! I managed to actually call myself an artist!)
Anytime someone tells me they like one of my paintings, I decide they are just being polite or don’t know what they’re talking about! I reply by pointing out the work’s faults! Don’t they know I’m a fraud! ‘Imposter Syndrome’ fear of being exposed as a fraud and doubting one’s accomplishments.
Putting aside the usual negative chitter chatter in my mind, it’s tricky to tell where my artwork sits. Exposed to so much online work to compare it to, while trying not to copy other artist’s style. Being authentic but producing pieces other people admire enough to purchase.
How do I know if my work is any good? I clearly doubt other’s opinions and can’t trust mine. I am often surprised by which paintings do well online, pieces I don’t feel are that good! Though to be honest I’m surprised when any work is received well! Though clearly this doesn’t stop me from continuing to paint!
Well I know this self-doubt is normal and common. I have to acknowledge what I have accomplished. I hope to find a place where I can comfortably and confidently present my work to the world with a satisfied smile!
Life has been full of surprises and challenges. My brain had been in overdrive, while my emotions seem to have hopped onto a roller-coaster.
To help relieve some pressure and sort myself out I have created a ‘dream’ or ‘vision’ board.
This idea is appealing to me at the moment, coming into the new year, it’s a great time to think about and organise my goals and thoughts.
I collected images from magazines and some other bits that will represent what I want to aspire to. Of course one of my goals is to be a successful artist!
Every morning I’m going to take a minute to look at my board as I get ready for the day, to refocus myself on what’s important. I think the board will also be helpful when I’m feeling overwhelmed by an issue. I’m not really into meditation but I can use my vision board to keep my thoughts positive.
I’m not going to pray to the board and assume the universe will grant all my dreams! But I will use it to remind me of the steps I need to take to realise my goals.
My website is live! After tinkering around with design. I’ve finally put procrastination aside and bit the bullet!
It’s not a hundred percent polished, there are things I’d like to add including an online shop for my artwork….one step at a time!
My site also has a Blog page. I decided not to link my WordPress blog. It was cheaper and avoided all the technical hurdles if I used the Wix platform for both my website and blog page.
Although I will share some of the content, I wanted to keep my site’s blog simple focusing on the process and promotion of my work. I’ll leave all the juicy details of my insecurities, failings and the rest for WordPress!
I welcome any feedback or ideas for improvements, although it’s live it still needs some work!
I’m sure I prattled on in earlier blog posts about the well known concept ‘practice makes perfect’.
Lately ‘turtles’ have appeared in some of my latest painting works. I nailed my first unplanned one, encouraging me to continue the theme. But now I feel I am struggling, whenever I confidently attempt painting a turtle, some winged and un-turtle like creature appears under my brush! They seem to be getting progressively worse with each attempt. So much for practice!
I was excited to start my latest piece. I was very pleased with the background I’d prepared. I selected all my favorite colours to create my turtle, the result…. I introduce this stunned green deep-sea creature! It looks more like a bloated flying frog!
Bat, bird, frog or plane?
I’ve been reading a lot about intuitive painting at the moment, so I put this green creature down to my intuition, not my intention. Somehow on the canvas this fellow needed to appear!
Perhaps I’ll have a break from ‘turtles’ for a while!